Friday, January 27, 2017





I found myself today putting some calm music and start to do some Yoga to stretch my muscles. 
It is a rainy day and while the rain was falling I've started to meditate.
It felt very good, I started to feel calm and very relaxed.
Nothing else around me mattered, my mind started to focus and one thing that came to me was, everything depends on me.
What I want to achieve, what I have to do, the power is in me.
Depends on me if I'm strong enough to get through the obstacles, depends on me if I'm gonna get stressed out about things.
I have the power and the strenght to change my life, to make my path, to be happy. No one else can do it for me, I have to lead myself, my mind and my body.
I have to take care of myself, be strong and choose to be happy and then be able to take care of others.
 It May seem some how selfish, but how can we take care of the ones we love if we aren't in our best shape or if we don't care about ourselfs.
Even if we live a life together, each one of us have our own battles along the day.
No one can live what I have to live, independently, trough my day.
Today I've learned something new, maybe I already knew it but my mind reinforced the idea.
Everything is falling in place again and soon enough I'm going to start working again. It's temporary, just until I'm able to be back to the kindergarden and work with my loved children.
I went visiting them on Wednesday, and felt the love and how they had missed me, just how I've missed them, I almost cried in front of them. I want to go back so much.
I've to be patient. I have to learn to be more patient.
Rain doesn't stop falling and I'm gonna enjoy my day reading and drawing maybe.
Be happy!

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Why don't we change the world?




Once upon a time there was a little girl living in a small city wishing to do more.
Her biggest wish was to go, seek for new adventures and save everything that needed to be saved, change everything that needed to be changed.
The little girl grew up carrying that wish in her heart, she wanted to do good.
Life happened, and the little girl's world fell apart and she needed to be saved, her world needed to change, and her needed to change.
So she did, and for sometime her heart turn a little bit darker than she wanted.
The question came to her mind, Am I a bad person now? I 
can't change or save everything if I can't do that for myself. How can I think about others when I don't care about myself.
For a while she grow in darkness, her mind, her heart had changed. She didn't turn in a bad person but she was growing stronger, to be able to protect herself from all the evil around her, she closed herself.
One day, the chains were broken, the walls fell apart and she started to see, step by step the sun shinining in her face, feeling the warm going inside of her.
As she loved herself more and her little world was staying in place, she had a realization.
It was an illusion, to want to save the entire world, to change everything, she was no super hero.

She realized that people could be really mean, or really good, but in fact people can be both. She was both, when she needed to step up for herself sometimes she could be very bad, but most of the time she chose to be a good person, but not a blind one.
She started to pass her love, her joy, her kindness to the ones who needed, the ones that could change the world one day, the ones that aparently have no future.
That's her way of making a better world, because alone she almost lost herself to a dream, a wish.
She saved many little worlds everyday, with LOVE. Maybe love isn't enought, maybe kindness isn't enought, but they are the only weapons that she have, to fight.
So why don't we change the world? Why don't we start with little worlds? With our inner world?
Because sometimes our world needs to be changed too.
By making small things we can do huge difference, maybe if we safe enough small worlds by sharing and loving and teach,we can save the big one!



Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Happiness


The definition of happiness is subjective. The way that I aspire to be happy may not be the same of others,because we all have our own path to follow.
In the present day I achieve many things that I wanted and needed to be happy, so I can say that I'm more happy than when I was younger.
Simply because I knew that I wanted to be happy but not how, looking back I was lost, a lot.
 I thought that the way I was living was happiness, freedom and didn't want to listen to anybody. In fact I was learning on my own for the first time, and I'm glad that I passed by all the bad things, and to have the opportunity to fail and learn on my own, because I never did that, I always did the right thing, I was the good girl, and starting being an adult by yourself can be harder than we think, or not, I guess it depends on the person. 
To me it was a sense of freedom, to do things on my own, in fact, I didn't knew anything about how to adult.
And I was discovering an whole new world around me without any backup.
I had friends trying to help me, and trying to talk to me, but I simply didn't want to listen, because it was my life and I wanted to explore and do things my way.
I didn't knew I could balance two worlds, the responsability and the fun and freedom.
I should had listen to them? Yes! Everything would have turn easier , but I'm the kind of person who likes to do her way first and see what happens, not so much anymore, because I've learned to think before acting.
Anyway, somethings I wish I could change, but all the process made me grow and at least try to not make the same mistakes again.
Life it is a learning process, and the mistakes and the victories are part of that process, that's the way you grow.
Back in those days I didn't knew that balance could be a way of being happy, stability could be a way of being happy.
And I'm happy now, I feel happiness, most of my days I feel joy inside of me, I realized I have now all the things I wished for on my 15s. I have a home, I'm loved and my professional life is going for better. I don't have a lot of money, my job it's not going to pay me a lot, but it's a job that I like for the first time, I can't say it's my dream job but it gets closer to that, and I get this job probably I don't have to search for a job anymore in my life. Stability!
I don't want much in my life, I don't aspire to be the most rich person and have expensive things inside my house just for the sake of it.
Yes, I appreciate good and quality things or food, I would like to have a little more money to spend, and financial freedom to travel more and go on vacations, but sometimes it's better to achieve small goals in life.
For me it's a big victorie to final realize what I want to be in my professional career and achieve my inner balance and stability in life.
It took me 25 years to realize what I really want to be and not feeling lost, I have a purpose to follow, one that it's possible to achieve, for the first time in my life I have loved my job and I never wanted to go back as much as now, it could be tomorrow, I would glad say yes, forever!
I never wanted to stay in the same job for all my life, because I never liked any at that point.
For many happiness may be to become rich, or have a big house or top car, for some happiness have another definition, may not be attached to material things and be found in the small things in life, to live the small things that life has to offer, may be to find balance, and inner peace, to achieve small goals that lead to great things.
Happiness may be to fight fears and step out of our confort zone.
It is up to each of us to define the concept of happiness.
So, just find your way and be happy!




Friday, January 13, 2017

Dreams and Goals



We tend to be afraid of changing, to start something new or pursuit a new path in life can be terrifying for some of us. Although that it's ok, we will never know what's gonna happen next, how this new path is going to work out, but we shouldn't live our lifes, day by day, worrying so much how the future going to be, we shouldn't stress so much to a point that we stay nervous and anxious for an entire day, not focusing in anything else, not focusing in what we have now, what we are living now!
Sure, it's ok to think about the future, it's ok to have goals and dreams to achieve, that's something that matter to us, that makes us go foward in life, to want more, to want to live in a certain way, to have that kind of job, to have a bigger house or better things, more time for us, in the end, I truly believe that all of us pursuit to live a life that make us confortable and happy, to have a good life, and what means good for me doesn't have to aplly for other people, everyone has is own way of living or their own path to make themselfs happy and confortable in their own shoes.
But living in worrying all the time isn't healthy, and life passes by you without you even know, maybe you'll achieve your goal in one week, maybe a month or maybe it's going to be a long time before you achieve what you want.
Don't waste your time trying to rush things out, what have to happen will happen.
Stay focus on your present while thinking about the future.


               Be Happy!

Thursday, January 12, 2017

Tattoos

A story painted in our body


I always been interested in tattoos and body modifications since I was a little girl.
In times before tattoos weren't as popular as they do now in the present days.
In my home town it wasn't very popular to see tattooed or pierced people walking on the streets, but on a beautiful day I went to buy some craft stuff because I used to do some craft things and I met a beautiful girl with tattoos and her lips pierced. I was staring at her and she went, Hi! 
I used to don't be afraid to talk to people and we started a conversation about tattoos and body modification, it wasn't a very long conversation, I think, but I still remember asking if it hurted, and she responses like if we really like it and you really want to do it, the pain is worth.
I left the store thinking, I want to be like that girl when I grow up. Haha!
I was 12 years old back then, and I did my first piercing at 16 years old. I still have the hole and sometimes I put the piercing for fun. I was 18 years old when I did my first and only tattoo in my wrist. In the age of 19 years old I started to stretch my ear lobes to the point they are today, 14mm.
I want to stretch them more but I'm not really sure what size I want to stop, and I surely want to do more tattoos, I crave for them, I wish I had the money available to start doing more.
Since I don't but I'm into that subject a lot, why do not learn a little bit more about tattoos.





  • To be inspired by other person's tattoos it's ok but to steal other's customized custom designed tattoos from other people is wrong.
  • It was illegal to get a tattoo in New York city between 1961 and 1997.
  • In Massachusetts, tattooing was illegal all the way up until 2000.
  • Tattoos have been part of the human experience since the Stone Age.
  • Fifty years ago, tattoos were the watermark of rebels and social outcasts.
  • Your tattoo ages with you.
  • Depending on the size and variation of colors in the tattoo, your skin can be pierced between 50 and 3,000 times per minute.
  • Your tattoo experience will vary according to the location and tattoo artist that you choose.
  • Pain experience while receiving a tattoo depends on the individual.
  • Receiving a tattoo has been described as simmilar to getting stung by a bee or getting a sunburn.
  • The Latin word for tattoo is stigma.
  • Urine mixed with coal dust was used as tattoo color.
  • The existing tattoo designs displayed in a tattoo shop are known as"flash".
  • UV tattoos are created with ink that is completely invisible in normal daylight  but glows brightly under ultraviolet light.
  • In the U.S. are more tattooed woman than men (23% vs 19%) according to a 2012 survey.
  • The first professional tattoo artist in the U.S. was a german immigrant, Martin Hildebrandt, who arrived in Boston in 1846.
  • A tattoo machine has four parts: 1.the needle; 2.the tube that holds the ink; 3.an electric motor and 4.a foot pedal to control the movement.
  • The man who invented tattoo machines in 1891 was a New Yorker tattoo artist named Samuel O'Reilly. He based his design on the autographic printer, anengraving machine  invented by Thomas Edison.
  • Tattoo is one of the most misspelled words in the English language.
  • The word tattoo derives from the Polynesian word "ta", which describes the sound of tattooing spike being hit against skin.
  • "Holiday" is the name given to the area where the color of the tattoo has faded.
  • A tattoo is etched in the second layer of the skin, the dermis.
  • The most popular tattoo images are angels and hearts.
  • Sailors used to get King Neptune and sea turtle tattoos to express they've sailed across the Equator.
  • The title for the most famous of all criminal tattoos goes to the Japonese Mafia, the Yakuza. It's members wear intricate and traditional designs in a full-body suit that can be hidden entirely from view with clothes, as a sign of their commitment to the gang.
  • For the Ainu women in Japan, tattoos of giant-sized lipson their faces were customary. Lip tattoing was seen as a mark of maturity and believed to repel evil spirits.
  • The longest tattoo session ever, lasted a grand total of 50 hours and 10 minutes.
  • The most tattooed man in the world is Gregory Paul Mclaren, also known as Lucky Diamond Rich.
  • The richest tattoo artist in the world, Scott Campbell, charges 1000 dollars per hour and only works on the weekends.
  • Until the 1970s "nice girls" had to have marriage licenses and be accompanied by their husband to get a tattoo.
  • While filming "xXx", actor Vin Diesel had a fake tattoo in his stomach, the name Melkor. It was revealed that it was the name of Diesel's character on a game of which he was a big fan, Dangeons & Dragons.
  • Queen Kamamalu of Hawaii was the first person ever to get a tongue tattoo and she did so out of grief when her mother died in the 1820s.
  • 32% of people with tattoos claim they're "addicted" to ink.
  • Tribal tattoos are the most common design requests.
  • Archaeologists have discovered tools in France, Portugal and Scandinavia that were probably used for tattooing. These are at least twelve thousand years old or from the time of the last Ice Age.












Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Minimalism

A tool to improve my life



Well, I'm still learning a lot about minimalism and training my mind to be a minimalist, sometimes I still want to buy things just for the sake of it, maybe it's cheap or I'm on bad mood and I want to feel the rush of having something new.
In these moments I do have to ask myself, these thing is goig to bring more happiness in a long term to my life? Are you buying this because it is the cheap version of what you really want but you can't afford it right now? 
And I usually leave the store with empty hands. I rather wait and save money to buy what I really want and buy quality things, that I know will last more and make me happy and add value in a long term. Having a budget really helps to me in way to pursuit this way of living and don't waste any money of course.
What minimalism has teached me it is that my number of possessions doesn't matter, I don't have to live with less than 100 things to be a minimalist, I don't have to have a white house with no patterns or empty walls, that's not the point of it.
I've learn to simplify, to live lightly and live in an uncluttered environment, buying pratical and really usefull things.
I used to be part of the consumerist mind set, I used to love when people gave me things, but I came to a point in my life where I prefer a fresh, organized home, because things doesn't make me who I am, my number of possessions doesn't define me as a person, most of the things that I used to have didn't make happy, they were only things.
Minimalism is a tool that help me to focus in what really give my life meaning, help me reassess my priorities and get rid of the excess of material possessions that don't improve my life in any aspect.
What matter to me is to live a happy life, with love and joy, living the moments, the little moments that I will remember forever.



Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Black will always be black!


I'm a lover of the color black, although people think other color make me more beautiful, some make surprised faces when they see me wearing other colors.
People tend to put labels on me because I wear black all the time, and some even question if I am a gothic.
No! In my teenage years I went through a phase I thought I was gothic just because I was sad and I dressed black clothes. 
I went through a lot of phases actually, and I didn't stuck with any.
Today I just want to be me, that's the more important thing that I search for, just be me and accept myself for being who I am.
I don't need any label to describe who I am or who I want to be, my clothes sure help me express myself, sure they help me feel more confortable in my own skin.
That's it, the key in here is to be confortable, confort and feeling good and confident along the day, black just happens to be my favourite color. So most of my wardrobe contains black clothes, although I'm trying to embrace new colors like burgundy, grey, camel and some olive green.
So, no I'm no gothic, I like the style a lot, yes, but I do like so many more things, I like hippie style or bohemian style, I used to had dreads and wear a lot of colorful clothes before my life turn around. (I missed them a lot)
I guess I incorporate those styles all in my head, and when it is summer time I tend to be more bohemian and in Winter I go more for black.












Vulpes Vulpes and a cloudy day


Today it's a damn cold day outside. I went out for some grocery shopping and it's a cloudy day, sun is very shy today or lazy and didn't wanted to appear for us humans how enjoy his heat every time, along the year. I didn't even mind when is summer time with those very, very hot days, I love that and appreciate those days because I know it doesn't last forever and hate feeling cold.
Today I woke up, in my previous work schedule, so it's pretty early and I did enjoy my morning, and to warm my soul and brain I've been learning about animals, those beautiful creatures that I love so much.
So there we go.




  • A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.
  • Butterflies taste with their feet.
  • A group of rhinoceroses is called a crash.
  • Gorillas can catch human colds and other illnesses.
  • There is an average of 50,000 spiders per acre in green areas.
  • Ostriches can run faster than horses, and the males can roar like lions.
  • The bat is the only mammal that can fly.
  • The leg bones of a bat are so thin that no bat can walk.
  • A tarantula spider can survive for more than 2 years without food.
  • If you keep a goldfish, in a dark room, it will become pale.
  • The scientific name of the red fox is Vulpes Vulpes.
  • The average fox weighs 14 pounds.
  • Cows have four stomachs.
  • Sweden has a rabbit show-jumping competition called Kaninhoppning.
  • Even a small amount of alcohol placed on a scorpio will make it go crazy and sting itself to death. (That's why I don't drink much, I don't kill myself of course, but go crazy and in the end I feel like I'm dying because of nausea, haha!)
  • Canis Lupus Lupus is the scientific name for a grey wolf.
  • Alligators can live up to 100 years.
  • Turtles can breathe throught their butts.
  • Blue-eyed lemurs are one of two (non-human) primates to have truly blue-eyes.
  • Some male songbirds sing more than 2000 times each day.
  • A single elephant tooth can weigh as much as 9 pounds.
  • Dog's nose prints are as unique as humans fingerprints and can be used to identify them.
  • During World War II, Americans tried to train bats to drop bombs.
  • Squirrels plant thousands of new trees each year simply by forgetting where they put their acorns.
  • Squirrels will adopt other squirrels babies if they are abandoned.






















Monday, January 9, 2017

The art of being!


What about filling my free time, searching and learning new things, yes!
When I was working full-time, I had wish for more time, to do what makes me happy, to draw more, write more, learning more about stuff that increases my curiosity about things, subjects and life itself.
But I never really spent time on those things because I always had something else to do, and I "forgot" about that curious little girl inside me that always had some new book to read, or a subject to learn about.
As our body needs to work out does our mind or brain to.
So I thought, last week I didn't do much with my free time, this week I don't want to just see movies or clean the house, I want to fill my time in a way that I'm proud of it, so why not educate myself more.
So first subject I've been searching and learning about is:
The human being, the human body. I'm one of these and I don't know pretty much anything about my own specie, so let's go and see the facts and funny facts about being a human!





  • When a person dies, they have 7 minutes of brain activity left. It's the mind playing back the person's memories in a dream sequence.
  • The average human only gets 10 percent of his brain capacity in the lifetime.
  • Our nose can distinguish and remember up to 50,000 diferent types of smell.
  • The human eye is so sensitive that if the Earth were flat, you coud spot a candle flickering at night from up to 30 miles away.
  • When we blush, the lining of our stomach blushes too.
  • The human brain can read up to 1,000 words per minute.
  • A full head of human hair is strong enough to support 12 tonnes.
  • For every pound of fat or muscle gained, our body creates seven miles of new blood vessels.
  • The focusing muscles in our eyes move around 100,000 times a day.
  • Humans share 50% of their DNA with bananas.
  • When in love, the human brain releases the some cocktail of neurotransmitters and hormones that are released by amphetamines.
  • Inside our belly button are thousands of bacteria that form an ecosystem the size of an entire rainforest.
  • Along with the five traditional senses of sound, sight, touch, smell and taste, humans have 15 "other senses". These includes balance, temperature, pain, time and internal senses for thirst, suffocation and fullness.
  • Humans shed 40 pounds of skin in their lifetime, completely replaicing their outer skin every month.
  • In 30 minutes, the body gives off enough heat to bring a gallon of water to boil.
  • Our body produces 25 million new cells every second.
  • Humans are bioluminescent and glow in the dark. The light that we emit is 1,000 times more weaker than our human eyes are able to pick up.
  • We all are born with blue eyes, melanin and exposure to ultraviolet light are needed to bring out the true color of babies’ eyes. Until then we all have blue eyes.
  • Crying relieves stress and allows humans to decrease feelings of anger and sadness. It physically does help to let it out.
  • We all are made of stardust, almost every element on Earth was formed at the heart of a star.














Sunday, January 8, 2017

Sunny day, Sunday!


So, yesterday we just went shopping, grocery shopping, nothing much exciting and I didn't have the opportunity to take pictures because it was all dark outside.
But today was another day, I didn't took many picture just a few.
We woke up early and enjoyed a little bit the sunny day outside.
Days like these, although the cold, always make feel hope and good about life.
Days that I can spend some quality time with the person that I love.
Love is as important as the air we breathe, makes life much more easy and joyful, to be loved makes us feel important and warm on the inside, makes us feel beautiful, not that we can't feel beautiful without someone, it's important that we can feel beautiful on our own, but I think that having someone telling us or remembering us that we are beautiful makes things more special, that we matter to someone, I guess.
And today we set another goal for us in the future.
We talked about create the next Christmas time our Christmas, to set traditions on our own, to buy as presents for that day with a budget and be criative and surprise the other one. 
I liked a lot that idea and now I can't wait for Christmas time again, although I need summer so much, and it's gonna be a long ride till next Christmas.
All I can hope is that our life improves a lot and we be able to be as close as we are now!
Fingers crossed to a improvement in our life.


 This was my outfit today, a burgundy sweatshirt 
and underneath it a black sleeveless blouse 
with tiny palm trees detail.
on the bottom a normal skinny black jeans
and black boots.

 I spotted this beautiful pink tree, 
my new favourite tree!